Confusion

This past semester has been the most mind boggling, introspective, confusing and yet wonderful semester. Ive learned alot but yet i still feel like i know nothing. Its a marvelous feeling. Ever since i can remember, ive been writing music and dreamed of a career in music. However, education is very important so here i find myself searching for the right thing to major in and study. The reason this has been such a confusing semester is because i realized that i no longer wanna be an art major. The notion is saddening, even as i speak or think the words, but its the way i feel. The worst part is that i cannot describe why i feel that way or what made me change my mind, i just did. Maybe because im intimidated or because im simply discouraged because of how many amazing artists are around me. Or maybe its the lack of belief in myself that i can be an artist. Actually, i think its more that i dont have the passion to be an artist. I love art, dont get me wrong, but in comparison to my passion for music, the art falls short. So, i started doing lots of research, trying to find out about different areas of study that i can venture into and i found international studies. Just a note before i continue, by biggest issue is that everything intrigues me. Ive always been excited by so many different things and it worked to my advantage, up until now, because lets face it, you cant octa-major. Now, within the international studies department, you have to chose global studies which include things like global art etc, or area studies which is just that, Asian studies or Mediterranean studies etc. So, naturally, everything on there sounded so exciting. Im leaning towards Global Arts major and Asian Studies minor. Sounds like i really have it figured out now doesnt it? Nope! you guessed wrong. Now philosophy is blinking like a large neon sign in my brain and so is spanish and so is religious studies with the focus on asian religions. I think i might lose it. And to top things off, i made the huge mistake in telling my dad about majoring in international studies and he was thrilled, which he definitely didnt feel when i told him i wanted to do art last year. So now, this encouragement from him might make it impossible to swing any other way and my biggest fear is doing something for someone else and not being happy. one word...THERAPY!